Left only with my thoughts

Well the other night (Tuesday) I just could not sleep. It was one of those nights where one thing that is mentioned leads to a massive flood of things/emotions to the mind. Now, I won’t say what exactly started this, but I will say thatit came from an online conversation.

When I went to go to bed I figured that I would just be so tired, which I was, and I would just fall asleep. Well, I was far from wrong. I just laid there in my bed thinking one thing, which leads to another thing; and so on… this was not good. I was already physically tired by my mind was just not goingto let my body rest, not just yet at least.

I am sure that most of you have had thought processes like this before. You start with something so small and it leads to things that you don’t have control over. This is something that I just had to deal with sometimes. Now, really, this whole ordeal kind of started on my end (by me not doing things I “should” have) and I have no one to blame, except for myself. However, then when I say this I just end up reflecting on what was in the past and when I should have done certain things. But, what is in the past is in the past. I can’t change it,no matter how much I wish I could.

There is so much more to say, but some of it is better to be said in person and I don’t feel that this is the proper forum for it. Now I just wait forthe call that I asked for. You think it will happen?