I could only be so lucky

Last night I had the fortunate pleasure to sit down with a friend of mine that I have not had the time to see enough in the past few months. We talked about everything from school to relationships and just about anything in between. But, when talking to him it got me to think about some things that are happening in my own life.

Ok, well, I really don’t like posting very personal things on here because, I just don’t like to spit them out on the internet. I guess there is a good reason for why I do this, but sometimes I just want to push myself and see what I will post without making an ass of myself on line. So, now I begin…

For those of you who know me you should know that I haven’t been in a relationship for about a year and a half now. As with all relationships I learned things that I hoped to carry on into relationships in the future, whether they be with friends or with a significant other. What I am talking about now is how it relates to a significant other.

It has been an adjustment for myself to go from friend to significant other. Things change, for the good mostly, but there is always a cost. The cost is usually emotional. Now, I have zero emotional qualms to talk about right now and I hope to have it stay that way for as long as possible. I say as long as possible because I do realize that stuff comes up and there is no way possibly control everything that happens in a relationship. So, what I am getting at is that it has been a transition for me to be back in “relationship” mode.

It is not bad by any stretch of the imagination that I am in a relationship. I could actually only be so lucky to be in one right now. Seriously. But, for the first week or so it was really strange to think that I was just not by myself anymore. I was with someone else too. This was not a bad thing, but it was just strange because I had not had that for a long time (or what I would consider a long time). Right now, things are really good. I don’t have any complaints. I just find it really interesting on how people around me are happy that I am a relationship again. It is nice that that they tell me things like this, but I am just the same old me to them (or so I hope). Did I seem desperate for a relationship and now that I have one they are happy? Well, don’t answer that. But, nevertheless I am glad to be where I am right now. I have more to say, but I just think I’ll hold off on that for a while and let you just read what I have left here for you all to read.