Month: March 2004

New Quarter. New Classes.

Well, the new quarter has begun and I don’t really know what to think of it all yet. The classes seem harder than the previous quarters, but at the same time they might be the most rewarding. I am taking two social Informatics classes, one technical Informatics class, and my FIG training class. So, with all of that plus work I will be kept busy most of the quarter. I want to do well this quarter, as I have done in the past, and I think that the goal to stay on the Dean’s List is something that I could do again this quarter. However, I need to trust others to help me along the way. There are many group projects this quarter and I will need to be trusting of the people in our groups. But, yeah, classes should be good, but I really don’t know what to think right now, except that I should be reading right now and I already feel behind and it is only the end of the second day.

Why do I do this?

For the first two years that I attended school at UW I must say that I didn’t have much, if any, drama at all. But, for some reason, it seems like recently I have been causing drama between myself and some, well really one, of my friends. I honestly don�t mean to do this to people, but sometimes it just happens and I snap. Similar to what happened last night. I won�t go into details, since they don�t matter at this point, but I just snapped at one of my better friends. Something just came over me, that I can�t really explain, and I just went off.

Part of it was that I was taken back by what was said to me, but at the same time I should know better than to flip out like this to someone whom I care for. I should be a bigger man than that. But, I just fell apart and let the words get to me. I mean, what was said was not to be taken the way it was, but I got really offended by it and I just lost it. I hurt her, and I didn�t mean to at all.

Which, after it happened, made me think. Do I really know how much I affect people? I don�t really think I have the slightest idea. I am always putting myself behind other people and trying to put them before me, but at the same time I don�t see the effect that I have on other people. Even when you tell me, I probably will not believe you. So, it is hard for me to hear that I make a difference in someone else�s life. I just don�t see how I could. Personally I don�t see what I do that makes me stand out from the next guy. I just go about my business and just try to be me.

Study Fun

Today was pure study fun! Heh, well studying isn’t cool, but the people I studied with were cool. But, anyways it was a good day today and tomorrow will probably suck until 4:20pm when I am officially done with this quarter. Relief is so close; I cannot wait anymore to taste the freedom! But, now I rest for all of the �greatness� that will occur tomorrow.

Studying Is Cool

Since I have two finals on Wednesday I decided that it would be in my best interest to begin studying today. So, I did. I studied INFO at work after Jamie got off of her shift and then when I got home I hit the CSE books for around 4 hours. Mostly the time was spent dissecting all of the lecture slides since the last midterm and doing the new practice problems, but still, it was good review and I feel pretty confident about the material. Even more so since the test is open book and open notes.

But, earlier today when I went to work I was just totally out of it. I don�t really know what my deal was. I just couldn�t focus on anything and I was just being a complete scatterbrain. I would be talking to Jamie and then I�d totally forget what we were talking about and be like, �Hrm, could you repeat that, I wasn�t listening.� I�m hardly ever like that and when I am it is just really strange.

Also, tonight I had a brief phone call with my ex-girlfriend. It was nice to catch up on things and to just see how things are going. It�s nice to talk to her too see how she is and to see what she is up to. It�s hard to not be able to just chill every once and a while with her, but a phone call will do.

Like today, tomorrow will be more studying CSE and INFO for the finals on Wednesday. So, pretty jam packed with excitement. I know you are all not jealous, so no need to tell me. But, the rest of the week will be nice and relaxing before I head off to Whistler, B.C. for break.

It was a good weekend

Well, where the hell do I start? I started off Friday being disappointed that I couldn’t eat lunch with my lady, but it was what needed to be done. So, Friday was pretty crappy until the evening came around and I got to get some things off of my chest. Thanks for listening, you don’t know what it means. But, before that I had a movie with Kathryn and Anthony and then it was off to Kathryn’s place with some of the iSchool crew for some drunkenness and well… “good times.” Needless to say, it was a good time… but that is all you will ever know.
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